Tuesday, 9 November 2010

Can't stop watching...

The Middle.

The first time I watched it I was in pain, and doubted I could watch again.

You see the girl who plays the daughter:

in fact the whole character that she plays, is Sophie - the daughter that we lost.

After watching that first episode, I was almost relieved when it ended, even though I never thought to turn over - I felt compelled to watch, to marvel that my daughter was apparently reincarnated like this.  Everything was there - the braces, the hair, the joy, the amazing temper, the dress sense, the teenage crushes.  So I watched to the end and then swore I would avoid it in the future.  I half wondered if she really was like our daughter or if I was just imagining it, even sort of wishing it?

Then, a week or so later, I found my wife watching it, transfixed.  I knew what she was thinking and we watched together.

After this, all of our kids and my mom have independently said that this girl reminds them of Sophie.  It wasn't just me being a bit mad.

Now I watch it quite a lot, without the pain but sometimes with a touch of sadness.  I miss her quirkiness - I even miss the tantrums!  None of our other kids ever came close for that and gave up long ago, unable to compete.

So we are all agreed on this.  If you ever wonder what my daughter was like -just watch an episode of The Middle and you will know.


TechnoBabe said...

That would be a mixed bag of joy and sadness for sure. If your daughter was so muck like this gal in the video, then your daughter was incredible. I know you miss her still and always will. Thanks for showing what she looked like and her mannerisms.

terri said...

From the looks of this, Sophie was a beautiful girl, full of energy and life. I'm glad you're able to enjoy such a vivid reminder of her without so much pain as the first time around. Maybe this is her way of staying in touch with you.

agg79 said...

It it a mixed blessing that you are able to see a part of Sophie in the show. I know it is painful to remember your loss, but perhaps this gives you some comfort in remembering Sophie in all of her traits. Thanks for sharing.

Shadowthorne @ Ramzu Zahini said...

...... (I just don't know what to say. But if you are glad, I am happy for you)