Tuesday, 17 June 2008

3 Years Ago Today...

We lost our daughter.

There is still a lot of pain, a lot of anger, a lot of emptiness. She was a huge part of our world that suddenly vanished.

I miss her smile, huge and full of joy.

I miss her laugh, loud and cackling.

I miss the softness of her hands.

I miss her strange mix of TV viewing - Jerry Springer, CSI, horror movies, South Park and Winnie the Pooh.

I miss the way she enjoyed good food.

I miss the way she got so excited at Christmas, not being able to sleep even when she was 16, and the way she shook with excitement when opening her presents.

I even miss the arguments - boy, could she hold down an argument! After our experiences with her the others haven't got a chance, we are battle-hardened veterans!

And I miss the way at the end of a day out or at college she would have to tell us every single detail of her day.

I miss her so much. But I also know that she is now in a wonderful place where the problems of the world cannot touch her and, when the time comes, we will all be together again.

13 comments:

territerri said...

It must be near impossible to comprehend why she could only be with you for such a short time. I love that you have allowed us to get to know her through the memories you share with us. My thoughts and prayers are with you and all of your family today. Sending hugs your way...

Ali said...

It breaks my heart that you have to live without her, but I agree with you too - now she is at peace and healthy, and you can bet she's watching over your family.

I can't be there to hug you, but I'm sending some anyways. My love to you all.

mindy said...

I'm so sorry. :-(

I hope it helped a little bit to share?

jenelle said...

Sending out my prayers for your family. Hold on to sweet memories.

Logziella said...

Terri said it great...Thank you for allowing us to get to know her a bit thru your memories. She sounds like a fantastic person. I love that she could "hold her own" in an argument and that you even miss that...makes me think about my Kenzie and how it's part of her personality and I can love that part of her too.

"A place where the problems of this world cannot touch her"...that right! I like how you wrote that.

I am sorry John. So incredibly sorry. Thanks for sharing Sophie with us. She was a gift and is clearly still touching lives today.

kenady said...

There are just no words. My heart goes out to you and your family. I am sending lots of hugs your way! love to you, erin

Kiki said...

John, You know I sort of know, not a child, but loss...no words to wash away that pain, instead just thoughts of peace for you today, and lots of comforting hugs. My prayers are with you and your family, lots of love going across the ocean to you today and for as long as you need.
Kristen

James said...

Thinking about you bro.

mr zig said...

Nothing i can really say to this man, but just know I feel for ya! I can only imagine what you're going through, and wish you and your family all the strength in the world!

Logziella said...

I am keeping your family lifted up in prayer...

tz said...

what a beautiful post! My heart goes out to your family and to you.
hugs to you and yours!

Chachi said...

Chief - so sorry to know you have so much pain. My prayers are with you and your family.

What wonderful memories you have of your daughter. Keep them close to your heart.

Sorry this is so late.

Sitting in Silence said...

What a beautiful post....

Thinking of you all

xoxox