and I agree...
My holiday time is over - nearly a month - and I am now back at it again. No more days of waking up and wondering what to do with the day, no more drifting into consciousness, going for a slow stroll with the dogs, grazing for breakfast, etc.
No.
Summer has gone, and work has returned. Life can be so cruel :-)
But at least today's weather has not got me thinking that I could be sitting in the garden, sipping beer, chatting to Mrs RC and painting toy soldiers. No, from just before I got to work it has been raining more or less constantly. Sometimes as a fine drizzle, sometimes like it is suggesting that we all build big boats and start loading up the wildlife, but it has not stopped as far as I can see.
Just wondering if it will stop before hometime....
Funny how much confidence affects what we are able to do, isn't it? Doubt yourself for a second and you are likely to fail. Is this why there are so many over-confident idiots in positions of power? I point to most of the UK government as an example, posh people from posh schools, most of them have never been allowed to fail at anything, and are now failing to notice that what they think is good for the country is appallingly bad for a lot of the people who live here - not to mention those who are overseas and are affected by the choices they make...
Anyway, back to the point - for years I have not been able to sing. I knew I couldn't do it and every time I tried I sounded awful. But recently something changed in me. It was while on the isle of Lundy, there was a lot of discussion about all sorts of stuff, and I came away feeling subtly changed. On the island I wrote a short song and sang it to the group. It wasn't great but I felt that it was not as bad as it used to be. Then the singer of our band went on holiday and I stepped up to the mic to cover for him, after the guitarist had declared that he could not play and sing at the same time. OK, I am not claiming to be Sammy Hagar, but given that I only had 3 rehearsals as singer, I don't think I was bad. Might even have some audio later in the week for you to listen to! And I loved doing it too! All comes down to confidence, standing up to the mic and singing from the heart. Confidence...